2020 + what I'm looking forward to
2020 in self portraits
#1 Ha, okay. Funny Joke.
#2 Are you serious? Because, I don’t think I can handle this.
#3 Oh, I’m handling it. Bring it on. What else do you have for me?
#4 Deep breaths…my sourdough starter needs attention, my kids haven’t showered in a week + my yard is full of dog poop. And we have each other – NO MATTER WHAT!
2020 was a hard year for me. It has been one of the most difficult years of my life. A hard year for you, probably too. It just wasn't great - BUT it also brought a new perspective + so many good things. I learned so much. So much about myself. So much about others. So much about this world.
So many of us struggled. Struggled to maintain our sense of normalcy. Our sense of comfort. And continue to do so.
I had a hard time mentally + physically. A hard time staying focused + motivated. It has taken a lot for me to look within + focus on the future. Gosh, being home with my kids is both a blessing + so freaking HARD. And to be happy with where I am right now. It's process + I am far from where I want to be.
I learned that most things are temporary. Knowing that, believing in it + trusting the process.
BUT love is permanent. Love is about forgiveness, appreciation + understanding. I can be hard to understand sometimes, but I try to open my heart + mind. Love has honestly, carried me through this year.
I reached deep into my friendships with myself, my husband, my children, my friends + family.
I realized that many things come in twos. Like pain + joy. Salt + sugar. Peanut butter + jelly. Black + white. Balance + unbalance. Letting go + receiving. Me + you.
It makes us who we are.
I am opening up my being to a new version of me. There is a divine plan. Keep going forward with your confidence + strength.
The energy I used to hold myself back - I'm using to propel myself forward. Seems strange but everything I have accomplished this year or haven't yet is building up + pushing me forward to where I want to be. Don't hesitate for a second. Look at your progress + make it push you forward.
You and I are being prepared for our blessings. Be ready to receive + trust the process.
My wishes for a New Year are...
*channel more of my creative energies wisely - building my blog more, taking more risks in the kitchen, trusting the process
*look within to pivot my thinking towards many things - why think so quickly in one way - maybe try thinking in a different way
*continue to be okay with saying "no" - stand your ground in what you believe - only take on what you can.
*make more time for myself - no explanation needed
*laugh more at myself...why are we so hard on ourselves
*build a community of trusting + kick ass people
*extend my work beyond my clients
*if it doesn't exist, create it - make it
*be more present - in every way possible
*don't hesitate - DO IT!
Happy New Year, Friends. May this New Year bring you clarity, empowerment + MANY fabulous meals with people you love.